mission: wear purple

i had to do some deep soul searching before i decided to write this post.  this is not a recovery blog and i don't want it to be a recovery blog.  however, recovery is important to me and my journey to this day has shaped who i am.  this week is national eating disorder awareness week and i'm putting my story out there.  i'm not going to quote facts and figures regarding how many people are effected or how much money the dieting industry makes.  to me, those numbers aren't important.  they don't illustrate what an eating disorder is like.  that sort of awareness can only be spread by those who have experienced it.  eating disorders aren't about food.  crazy, right?  they're about control.  more specifically, they're about feeling out of control and this feeling manifests itself in controlling food.  it is a comfort.  some people abuse drugs or alcohol, some steal, some shop.  it is all the same thing.  it is an escape and a way to numb yourself.

it is unbelievable to wake up one day and realize you're on a collision course and if you keep it up, you're going to die.  eating disorders kill people.  they're evil, they prey on your weaknesses and they're loud.  you can's escape it even for one moment once you're in.

this week i challenge you to wear purple to spread awareness.  eating disorders happen to people everyday.  your wife, your mom, your sister, your friend, your girlfriend, your teacher, your classmate, your lawyer, your nurse.  know this because i met all these people on my road to recovery.  please feel free to join me and wear purple to show your support.  questions or comment?  please email at: poptartyogini@gmail.com